ups and down in my birthday party

today is my birthday party, a lot of surprising events. I'm so glad this day. but, Sadly he was not there beside me: (I really miss him! I did not know he knew or not that today is my birthday. I really hope he gives me a happy birthday greeting. very very wish. but I knew it would not be happening. it's just my dreams. if that happens, I will be very, very thankful to god! really!